Second thoughts

'Not stuck on you. Just. Stuck. I hope you're well. You sound well. Of course, I haven't heard your voice in days, weeks, months. It's as if I took a vow of silence since we departed. Yeah, my thoughts have been clearer. No, we never broke up. Yeah, we used to be something. No, we were never together. Yeah, I'm really well. Thank you for asking. No, you can have the last cookie. What I meant to say is, you seem well. You seem great. Of course, it's tough to see behind the lens if the camera is blurry. Conscienceless, I am. Free, I am. Intrigued to turn it around and put no effort into it-us, I mean-put effort into us. It's just history. We're history. We were history, that's no mystery. Misery-can you feel it? I don't, just emptiness. Fill the pot with sorrow and doubt, and all one receives is bitter, bland tea. Walk out into the morning shine a day after a rainstorm and breathe, 'I am worthy.'"


"You've blossomed. Wow, you have the most perfect figure."
-"Thank you, (have they not seen what's out there?) I've grown up."
"Beautiful, you have gotten so beautiful."
-"Thank you very much! I appreciate it. (have they not seen otherwise?)"

Adventurism

Saturday through Tuesday, my soul was in LA.

Just some shots via mobile, enjoy:

Some down time with cast and crew, and I, a mathlete.

Tons of fresh faces.

Orchad salad at Jerrys Famous Deli. Divinity.

One perk for living five minutes from the beach, another for my room window facing sunset.

Just another day at The Getty Museum with some great people.

Crashed the Golden Globe Awards.

A peaceful drive down PCH.

Let the light shine through.

Chelsea Lately with a couple new friends.

Tis a beauty.

Watching the sunset on the freeway.

Hope you're well!
xo

aHoy!

Shout out to the new follower! Thanks for stopping by (:
Very cliche to say, but I appreciate it.

A brief summary of grubbing through colorful creations.

What else?

I have just slightly gotten over being sick.

Don't allow things to haut you forever, even if they are unchangeable.

Life's been relaxing, two more weeks of winter break left for me.

I've been sleeping quite well. Rising and shining early with Franklin's moto (even if he disobeyed it himself-but c'mon, it's Ben Franklin).

Worked at a library and this was nearby:

Enjoy the leftover pieces of life.

It's in the air, and I'm not talking about the firework smoke.

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Happy New Year, darlings. I think my resolution would be to: grow. The resolution might be a tease, actually. I grow everyday; I'm only human. To grow through knowledge, through religion, through the hardest times and through the most memorable of times-I'm already ahead of my resolution. So, it's like a way of cheating. We learn something new everyday and we age every single moment. To grow is something I can achieve but also push myself into believing I need. What's your 2011 resolution?

Good morning, goodnight. I spent my New Year's Eve with a friend of mine named Yuliya (the model). We watched a Russian New Years party on television and sipped some sparkling cider with our caviar and Chinese food. Interesting combination, although it wasn't at the same time. We played some dress up, took photos, read some poetry, entertained ourselves with stories and thoughts on the future.

When the ball dropped, we did what everyone else was doing: yelling and smiling, laughing and hitting crystal glass to crystal glass (champagne vs cider-we had the cider). We also ran outside to check out the fireworks. There were four different directions to look for the exploding colors across the blue night. It was nice. Back inside, more chatting and music until I packed up my things and headed out.

In the car, I was a little nervous to make ends meet with drunk drivers. I was surprised with all the cars out and about at such a time: one o'clock. Thankfully, I only live two minutes up the street. Justin Nozuka's second album, You I Wind Land and Sea kept me calm and soothed out.

I really hope that this year will always feel refreshing. This is the rebirth to new improved people-self included.

I know, we should all have goals and resolutions about everyday life, no need to state it. This is just a bigger bang and a team effort. This future will bring things together, break things apart, and be different. I can feel it.

It's in the air, and I'm not talking about the firework smoke.

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